Song of the moment : Downtown by Macklemore and Ryan Lewis (Feat. Eric Nally)
My mind wanders and races when I have energy. I can’t think or hold a single thought and my motivation goes strong, but can’t stay on a single topic at that moment. Makes for a tiresome day. I have so many things I want to do. Now. At this moment. Just can’t stay focused.
Focus. My main issue. I always thought it was procrastination, but it’s focus. If I am given a task and I can actively focus, I can power through procrastination. Today, that’s a huge challenge.
Breathe in. Breathe out.
Probably wasn’t a good idea to listen to upbeat music at the moment. Too wired to sit still. As I type, I am fidgeting and shaking in my chair.
Nope…it’s the Mocha Frappe.
No. I was like this before that. Just wired. Mind is wandering and I can’t think or focus. Gonna read a BWWM novel and try and get back in the game.
Try. Try. Try….
So I have been busy and a bit crampy ( Women you know how that feels). So I have slacked off on T25. What does this mean for me? Well, I hate it. My motivation went kaput. So I will be redoing week two ALL over again. I feel I owe it to myself to get in shape and even though I should be working through the pain, I don’t feel like it.
After this week of school and feeling fatigue, it will do my body some good to work it all out. If only my body would agree with my thought process.
I have made my goal to be busy. Productive is ok, but busy is great! I am starting a to do/calendar list and I am making it my goal to maintain it.
This sounds amazing in theory. However, I realized that I have a lot of crap that I have marked as a to do.
What I need to do is focus on one thing at a time. School. Social. Fun. I can do this. Well I am doing that now.
I am excited to say that I will be busy and productive over the next semester. If you are student or knows one, you know that with school comes work. Having the motivation can really be the stepping stone you need to power through the feed back that comes from friends, family, and life. I have so much I want to accomplish over the next semester that have to remind myself to breathe and take one step at a time. I am not like others, who can balance all and do all. I like to see where I am going and take a breather to see what my hardwork has gotten me. I watched an ep of Tia and Tamera and saw how these women have to balance so much, but are two different personalities whose idea of busy differs from the other. Tameras husband was great in telling her to look away from her priorites for a second and focus. I am trying to do that. I want to participate with the best of them, but I want to look away and focus on something else in life. A sport, a blog, maybe even volunteering. I know that I love being busy, but I still want to see the big picture after I am finished.
Well, at least I hope not. I have been on a mission folks (I am in luv with the word folks–so beware) and I have set about completing it throughout this entire summer.
1) Get my drivers license. Check
2) Save enough money for a down payment on a car. Check
3) Complete semester numero tres (that’s 3 in spanish) with a B or better. Check. Got that or better grade wah wah!
4) Focus. Hard but check
5) Vacation. Check
Now I am proud that even though it was a boring summer, I still did what I needed to do. I am just hoping that I can stay postive, focused, and motivated. Also…I want money.